For a brief passing moment, I let myself feel the pain...
For a swift fleeting moment , I began to feel real..
Thou only a few tears fell as the lump in my throat grew bigger...
Acknowledging my own pain wasn't as gratifying as had thought it would be..
If only I could steal someone else's emotions..make believe they were my own..
Most don't understand when i try to explain the dull aching pain that lives within me yet its not a sickness...
More and more each day I feel I'm slipping away from this so called reality..
Hopelessly I trudge on ..one more day ..just one more.
Amist the clouds I search for the answers to the nightmares that haunt me..
I'm convinced there are no reasonable explainations ...
Now I just wait to be taken to a higher level of justification where I'll never have to feel like I don't belong..