orginally wrote 4/19/10

Starting to believe I'm just not meant to be....

Learning to accept that I just don't deserve to be...

Quite certain it doesn't even really matter if I am ...

Positively no reason to be...

Whats the point in even trying to be...

There's nothing more wasteful than thriving to be...

There must be a logical explaination as to why I can never be...

Daily I look around me and see tons of people that are ...
So why can't I be...

- - - - - comes before so many holidays and special occasions.
It's such a sad reality , that I'll never be.....


The missing word remains the same in all these lines.

It echos thur my mind over and over each day that passes by.

Its no special game, just what life has become for me.

So without wasting anymore time , or spinning anymore rythmes, I'll tell you the word...in case you haven't already guessed it.........HAPPY.

One last part to this sad little game...go back and re-read each line adding the missing word....and maybe then you'll understand my pain.

Just once I'd like to have my own damn time! Doing completely what I want all damn day! Even if that meant being lazy all damn day and watching tv! Perhaps out to shop and for a nice long walk! NO one to bother me , no one to ask me for help, no cooking cleaning.. just me myself and I all damn day!!!!!