~The River~

by Ruby Wolfe

The river has become my favorite place to go to unwind and let my thoughts flow.

It knows all my secrets but would never judge me too harshly

The stillness of the water is just the calming I need at the end of a long day

The River is like my soul; can be calm, peaceful and so serene; Yet can quickly change to raging, overflowing and completely out of control after a storm. Leaving behind a scattered mess of debris. May god have mercy on whoever comes in contact with this river that has become me.

I won't ever claim to be perfect, perhaps lost at sea would be more fitting .

It's so hard to climb a mountain with these boulders coming down. It's hard to swim the ocean with these sharks lurking around. It's hard to fly the skies with broken wings. Through out these years my feet have been planted firmly on the ground..standing still not making a sound. But I've found my voice now and its time to conquer my fears. I'm about to climb the mountain, fly these skies and swim across the ocean, just to see the other side. I'll never give up as long as I'm breathing, I'll keep these dreams in my heart with hope in my eyes. I may not succeed at first but I'll surely fail if i never try..

Life is about choices..fear and pain go hand in hand.....

I will overcome my fears when I am no longer fearful of myself..this constant battle of living life grows quite tiresome; pleasing the masses and never one's self becomes harder each day. my one desire is to truly know what complete happiness is before my dying day ~Ruby Wolfe~

My pleasure , My pain..are but one in the same!! Don't pretend to understand, don't assume you know the reason behind my tears. Just know I didn't become this in a day..scars made me this way...Life happens that way. ~Ruby Wolfe~

The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain.
Lord Byron

For pleasures past I do no grieve, nor perils gathering near; My greatest grief is that I leave nothing that claims a tear. -Lord Byron
Fools are my theme, let satire be my song.
Lord Byron

 Sometimes it feels as if everything in life is just something we haul into the grave.
Doug Coupland

I always figure from the cradle to the grave, we all have our individual journeys, and maybe my journey was a positive one and I accomplished certain things without stepping on too many toes.
Robert Duvall

We are all selfish and I no more trust myself than others with a good motive.
Lord Byron

 I miss my dad everyday , I often wonder what he'd say if he could see me now and truly wish heaven was a place only to visit : where loved ones would not have to stay. Until i see your face, I'll count down the days until I'm in your loving embrace once again...for now I'll still be Daddy's little girl..wishing you could wipe my tears away. ~Ruby Wolfe~

My Own Angel!

          This year went by all too fast but in a way I'm glad to see it come to an end.  This year my dad became very sick and needed to be at the doctor or hospital quite often.  He has always been a fighter and was never one to give up but as he had put it  He was " out of gas and tired" .  He never stopped doing for others or doing work around the house, no matter how tired or sick he felt he just kept moving.   I admire that man for everything and I hope to be like him someday.   June 6, 2012 the greatest man I ever knew lost the battle and went home to heaven.  My dad was a truly a great man that no one will ever forget.   He worked hard, helped others as much as he could and loved his friends & family with all his heart!     Our world will never be the same without him but we know he's our own angel watching over us.   In 2013, I hope to become more like he was and do all I can to remember and honor him. 

I love you dad "charles 'bus' Matthews" ! 

I've been walking around with a cloud above my head since you went away.
Everyone tells me time will heal all wounds and that you watch  over me everyday.
I've been wondering when I'll sense your  presence and feel at peace knowing you walk with me.
I can't see past the pain to begin living again.
I can't stop missing you and wishing you were still here with me.
Feels like forever since I hugged you.
Feels like forever until we meet again.
A million tears I've cried for you, billions more will fall.
I miss you dad everyday and will love you forever.


I wish I could visit heaven ..to see your face, hold your hand , laugh with you and hear you tell me you love me , that your proud of me ..over and over. miss u dad.

Remembering My Daddy the greatest racer #5 !

I was supposed to go to the race track today where my dad used to race but it was canceled because of the rain.

For my dad and his memory, I will make it a point to attend more races next season.

I know I'll find myself searching for your car daddy # 5.

I can't promise to watch the race without tears in my eyes.

I can't promise my heart won't break each time the chargers go round the track..cause daddy that was your class.

I will remember you for the great man you were and how you always did whatever you could to help others.

Your love, smile, and kindness will live forever in my heart.

I love you daddy!
3/23/51-6/7/12

Dreams

~~~~~~~~~~Dreams~~~~~~~~~~
For every dreamer there is a dream that hangs in the balance of destiny waiting to come true.
For every Dream there is a soul waiting to see it through.
For every soul there is a dream dying to become a reality.
In reality, there millions of dreamers who will pursue the dream But in truth only hundreds will make them come true.
... Which will you be ...of the thousdands or of the hundreds?
Dare to dream, let your dreams grow wings and fly high into the sky.
You'll never know until you try. ~~~Ruby Wolfe~~~